evolution

I'm tired of people I let in my life view me as a project. I'm not clay to be molded. I'm a person with a past. I'm a father. I'm open and vulnerable. And I was underestimated my entire life. People mistake me being curious with being gullible. I recently lel a person enter my life that tried to change me and my home. As an outsider sees flaws in me or my home,they miss my personal growth and evolution of my home.

Out of a hateful person came I. Out of empty space came my home.

I'm willing to grow. I'm not to be changed.

nadam se da ti ovo neće biti poznato osećanje

Depresija je ozbiljna bolest. Borba sa njom je velika stvar. Nema veze sa izgledom osobe koja pati od nje. Nema veze sa načinom na koji neko govori. Ima veze sa mislima. 

Pet ključnih reči sam ti posvetio od trenutka od kad si se rodio. Lep,dobar, pametan, ponos i ljubav. To su vrednosti koje sam žarko želeo da internalizuješ. Prve tri su prve reči koje si čuo dok sam te držao na grudima par minuta pošto si se rodio. Teško je objasniti koliko si mi promenio život. Na koje sve načine si učinio sve što sam mislio da je bitno do tada irelevantnim. Poenta je da si bitan više nego što možeš razumeti. Da dodiruješ živote ljudi na načine koje ne možeš razumeti. Nekad ljudi koje ne poznaješ. 

Zato uspori u životu. Obrati pažnju na ljude oko sebe. Budi obazriv. Vidi ljude. Nikad ne znaš koji život si spasio dok ne saznaš koji život nisi.

identity as a defiance

I come from a proud people. Taken as particularity,my people might be proud for wrong reasons. But they are proud. We are proud. We stand tall when faced with difficulties. My people endured genocides, exterminations, wars, attacks and vilifications. All of them unjust. Because my people still stand. Outside appearing particular. But we are still there. Scattered around the world.

My people stand with Palestine. My people died to defend the Jews. My surname is rare because of that fight. And I wear that legacy proudly. I stand with Palestine, because my family stood with Jews. As my people stood with Patrice Lumumba and other forgotten heroes. 

Can I deal with what is going on in the territory known as Israel? No. 

But I can deal with what is going on where I am. 

Am I willing to go there? I am not. 

Am I a hypocrite? Probably. 

After 4 wars witnessed, my son will not grow up in one.